Somewhere there’s a fire burning
somewhere there are wedding bells ringing
everywhere else nobody was paying attention.
I’m having visions of a bed where no one sleeps
close my eyes, vast oblivion consumes my mind
for a second it doesn’t matter what anything means.
Open up my eyelids
Welcome back chaotic
Hard to believe anyone could get enough of this
Been long enough now,
guess I’ll never wise up.
nothing to look for
nowhere to look
curiosity can’t kill the indifferent
searching is pointless
a void can’t be found
the absence of something is just that
welcome back
listlessly looking for nothing in particular
leaving most stones unturned
effortlessly foraging
unsure of my expectations
and so much more
there’s a plethora of things
never meant to be found
a lot of the time
it’s just better not to know
there are things that can’t be unlearned
but no ones knows until it’s too late
The equation works out like this;
Mentally spastic,
Physically inactive,
Spiritually indifferent,
Psychologically speaking, I’m always obdurate,
Metaphysically desolate,
Overall feeling conflicted,
Hours spent questioning the purpose of existence,
Time within an undetermined mind
feels like a prison sentence,
Was wading in shallow waters,
but now I’m adrift,
This isn’t one of those trips
it’s not about the journey – it’s the destination,
Murdering my mind and time with procrastination,
Everything is static, waiting for the changes,
Suffering from absentee motivation,
Call back tomorrow,
my brain is on vacation,
Trying isn’t my strong suit,
I guess I’m just not dedicated,
Ambition is in short supply, sluggish passivity permeates,
Ineffectively straining to fully comprehend causation,
Incessantly contemplating what constitutes “Salvation,”
Internally debating; is cognitive thinking a blessing or some sick mutation?
what the fuck is this
can’t make sense of anything
just got lost again
The Deadbeat: Series of Nihilistic Ramblings 